媒体快读了5年，剩下最后一年却不知道将来要做什么。为了风光、面子，我是不可能放弃现在的学业～毕竟还有8个月。但是现在对媒体一点动力都没有，以前对媒体的热诚，都不见了。
之前在西马念了3年的书，毕业后就到柬埔寨当9个月的义工。回来后，就找到报馆的工作。报馆的工作是在下午到晚上，早上就去学我很有兴趣的烘焙。甚至把所有的工资都投资在烘焙工具上了。后来，我来到了台湾念大学～当时我一心想要当个记者。但是，剩下最后一年要毕业的我。才知道一个不会写新闻稿的人，要怎么当记者呢？不觉得好笑吗？？
现在，也不知道怎么了～很热心、很冲动的想要朝着自己的兴趣发展。所以我找到了很多学校，一个在广州 一个在北京。学费、住宿、签证等等。。我都问了一清二楚。告诉自己，明年媒体毕业，就要到北京学习。但，我还来得及吗？？再继续学，我几岁了？？
年龄啊！年龄～ 好羡慕那些年龄小小的。。。
我爸问我，你到底以后要做什么？为什么野心那么大？为什么到现在心还没安定下来呢？我不知道我以后要做什么！现在，我当然想说要朝着烘焙方面走。难保以后心又会改变。在我还没来台湾前，我跟朋友说我很确定以后要当记者。但是现在呢？？我对媒体的热诚跑去哪里了？我找不到啊！！
朋友都问我，明知道对烘焙那么有兴趣，当初为什么还要来念媒体大学呢？一半，我发现社会的现实。我在柬埔寨当义工那9个月，我有一位朋友的学历是学士，而我当时只是diploma文凭。因为在简朴寨的英文程度很低，所以我也想跟朋友一样。。去教大学生英文。我像院方提出这样的意见，但他就说：抱歉，你没有大学文凭。还有，因为在报馆工作那一年，总经理告诉我，我没办法给你太高的工资，因为你不是大学生。我得到双重打击。。
另一半，是因为家里的压力。我知道身边的亲戚都是大学生。我这邱家，也要出现一个大学生。所以。。。。我来了台湾
在柬埔寨时，我跟爸爸说：再给我5年的时间。5年后我就乖乖的待你们身边工作。虽然5年还没到。但是如果真的要到中国学习，爸爸必须要准备一笔钱啊！我心疼啊！！如果我有钱，那该有多好～
没人～真的没有人支持我啊！个个觉得那些是浪费钱、时间、岁月。唉～～
一切一切都是自己的错，为什么以前不好好读书呢？如果我没有浪费那2年的时间。现在大学毕业我才23岁。时光还能倒回吗？我真的很后悔啊！！哭了～～
2 comments:
Hey Doris,
I think what's the real problem here is the conflict between your heart and your mind. First you decided to teach right? It doesn't turn out because of certificate problem, so you gave it up, this one I understand, so you have to make sure u really left this teaching job will behind and start proceeding to the next.
Second will, a reporter. As you said in ur post ho, you study for the course of media right? If this is the only reason u come to taiwan in the first place, you should just finish it Doris :)If you want to know the reality of society, this is the answer, Jian Chi Dao Di. Don't let you brain shake your heart.
As for the cook and bake, let's take it as hobby k? My suggestion, you finish this media course first, go back to your parent, find a job, earn and save some money first. baking course is never too late for you :) Don't worry k? You can learn baking while you're working in media field. Maybe la, let's say at the age of 30, you take a real cooking and baking class, use your own money that u earned from the reporter salary. In this case, you wont feel bad about using ur parent's income right?? Your dad will be glad that u stay by his side also ma :)
Jia you Cousin, I will be here helping you k. Just remember to follow ur heart, not the complicating brain.
I study media already 5 years, of course i wont give up. i still will work about media job.. but by the way, i still will make some bekry job in home..
that's why, i want study more in bakey course.. even i study 1years, but its really not enuf for me~~
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